My husband has taken over my farm chores since he moved home. He expects nothing from me, and will argue if I help. I feel bad sometimes because he gets overwhelmed, between work and the farm. He complains because the kids don’t help like they should, they don’t do the chores right, or they expect him to do too much. Sometimes I bite my tongue till it bleeds, and argue with angry Kelly in my head.
“He’s just tired” I tell her.
“He’d better shut up!!” she screams.
“Calm down, he is just venting..” I plead with her.
“NOOO!!!” is all I hear and she takes over.
“Oh I get it,” she tells him with a bitter smile,” Trust me I do.”
He looked over surprised at the support, yet he sensed something in her voice. “I’m just saying they need to help more…” he quietly says and walks towards her. I want to warn him, to yell at him to run…”RUN!!!” but ‘Angry Kelly’ puts her hand over my mouth, and squeezes in warning. I love my husband, but I’m not going to mess with ‘Angry Kelly’ even for him, that bitch be scary.
“Did you ask them to help this morning?” she asks sweetly.
I see him look relieved at her being nice, and he answers honestly, while I shake my head waiting for her to strike.
“No they were in the house f**king around while I was doing chores!!!” he answered getting mad again while he remembered.
She laughed, and I watched his eyes widen as he finally realized who he was talking to, and it wasn’t the same ‘Kelly’ who offered to help with chores because he was sick.
“Yeah it must suck to be doing chores while ‘someone’ is f**cking around…trust me I know how it feels. It sucks to be feeding and shoveling shit while the other person is f**cking around!!! Excuse me if I get the irony of you complaining of them f**cking around while you are working…” She says it all with an angry smile on her face.
“I just meant…I’m sorry? I was…umm…Sorry??” he stumbled trying to find words.
I felt sorry for him, even though I agreed with her. I took a deep breath and let it out, expelling her and the hate. He hugged me and I felt his relief as I hugged him back.