A sweet friend of mine went to court to fight for custody of her child, and it made me think ” What if I would have had to fight for Laney?”
I don’t think about fighting for my boys, they are old enough they would be able to choose and in my heart? I know they would have chose me. How can I say that? This is their home, I’m not talking about the house we live in or even the town, I’m talking about ‘ME’ I’m their home. I’m their security blanket, their sense of family, the center of their spinning world…I AM HOME. Alaska, their father and ‘the whore’ were never going to be what they ran to when they had a bad day, it was always gonna be my kitchen counter/table and me. I was the one who potty trained them, taught them to tie their shoes, to spell their names, and to say ‘Thank You’. I was the one who read them stories at bed times, gave them baths, kissed their ‘ouchies’ and covered them with Superhero band-aids. I was the one who had cookies baked for after school snacks, grounded them for bad grades, hounded them to clean their rooms, and lectured them about girls. I was their mom, they were never gonna leave me, but Lou was 2.
In the first couple weeks, I had walking nightmares about ‘the whore’ getting her hands on Lou. The thought of her even touching my daughter made me cringe. If I had decided not to give my husband a second chance, and he started up with ‘the whore’ again? I knew I’d go to court and fight till my death before letting her have access to my daughter. My husband at one point told me in an argument he would “Fight for rotating weeks with Laney”. What he wanted was her with me one week, and then with him the next. ‘The whore’ had the same custody agreement with her ex husband, and mine thought he could get it too. I remember laughing at him and telling him “Good luck with that, your ex is a whore, and didn’t have a leg to stand on in court. I have been a stay at home mom for 20 years who has done everything for our kids while you were on the road, you don’t have a chance in Hell.”
Would he have gotten shared custody of Lou? I don’t know, it didn’t ever go there, and I’m glad she is being raised by both of her parents. She will never have to be shipped around for holidays, and school breaks. She will never have to be introduced to ‘the whore’, or be disinfected when she comes home from spending time with ‘the whore’. She is getting the chance to have the same childhood as her brothers, and while not perfect, it isn’t so bad either.
I pray for my friend and her day in court…I hope they see she has been the one raising and loving her child every single waking moment. I hope they see how much she has changed her life, and how it now rotates around her child and it’s needs. I’m hoping good wins again in court, and her baby gets to be raised by a mom who will be selfless, and strong.