I found a blog of a man who cheated on his wife and read it yesterday.
It could have been wrote by my husband (grammar errors and all). He is now head over heels in love with his broken wife, and wants to repair their marriage. I listened to his words of guilt and grief, and I felt bad for him and my husband. Yet as I read the last page he still couldn’t explain “Why”.
I know, I know, I STINKING KNOW!!! We will never ever know why…EVER!! Our minds will be given reasons and facts, but our hearts will never fully understand. I read in every quiet moment yesterday obsessively hoping this man could finally give me an answer which gave my heart peace, maybe he could explain in words which made sense.
Today I find my heart heavy because no answers were found. The ‘Holy Grail’, the magic eight ball, the map to the truth I thought I found? It was just a man writing a blog about his wife’s anguish over his affair. No answers were found there.
I know I have to accept that no answer to “Why People Cheat” will ever be satisfying to my heart. I wish I had the self-control to stop looking for an answer and just let my quest for knowledge go