One of the hardest parts of all this was coming to terms with how awful people can be.
It made me paranoid.
It made me clam up, and close up the best part of myself.
It made me sad.
People can be truly terrible.
And it almost destroyed the open part of me.
The one who tries to always see the best in people.
Who makes excuses for them.
Who loves them until I can’t love them anymore.
I like to love.
And to ramble…
On and on about things I’m passionate about.
I am glad I fought for me.
The parts which make me a nice person and me.
The part that still picks wild flowers on the side of the road.
Who smiles and talks to strangers when standing in the check out lane.
I’ve built a bigger kitchen table instead of walls.
My heart is still bigger than it should be to be safe.
Life, my sweet friends, is to short to live it safe.
And who wants to give terrible people power over our feelings and selves?
“We don’t deal with outsiders very well
They say newcomers have a certain smell
Yeah, I trust issues, not to mention
They say they can smell your intentions
You’re lovin’ on the freakshow sitting next to you
You’ll have some weird people sitting next to you
You’ll think “how did I get here, sitting next to you?”
But after all I’ve said, please don’t forget
(Watch it, watch it)
All my friends are heathens, take it slow
Wait for them to ask you who you know
Please don’t make any sudden moves
You don’t know the half of the abuse”
-Twenty One Pilots-