I’ve had four major appliances go out the last couple months.
My washing machine, dryer, oven and microwave.
We fixed the first three.
Threw out the microwave.
All three of our other appliances?
The parts and effort were worth the investment.
It reminded me of my marriage.
Maybe of yours too?
Think about it.
Dating for a couple months, he/she cheats?
They’re an ass?
You throw them out and move on, they aren’t worth the time and effort to make the relationship work.
Kids.
Home.
Love.
Those are investment pieces.
You take it apart and see if you can fix it.
Find the problem and look into repairing it.
Sometimes it works again.
Maybe when it’s all said and done you still have to throw it away.
And that’s okay.
Just remember my advice.
Upgrade ;-))
Do you research and don’t pick one with bigger problems than your old model.
But don’t be afraid of trying to fix it.
Be Brave my sweet friends.
Just my thoughts, over five years out, on this Sunday morning.
Ever wonder about what he’s doing?
How it all turned to lies?
Sometimes I think that it’s better to never ask why
Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone’s bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn’t mean you’re gonna die
You’ve gotta get up and try, and try, and try
-Pink
Happiness used to live here...surviving an affair 
Thank you so much for putting your heart, your spirit, your journey, and your brilliance into physical written form!! I have been reading your blog from the beginning every chance I got, for the past…two weeks? I think. Just finished. I’m so glad you give an update now and then. I am a year and a half from D-Day, and suddenly started desperately searching for (well-written) blogs about surviving affairs again. Thinking we’d come so far, it really threw me to be consumed again, to be still in a place of such deep pain, and seemingly unable to move forward, when I know my husband is doing everything he can to be transparent, show he is committed, help me feel secure, and love me. I went through another intense round of ah-ha’s, validation and healing while reading your story, and feel like I can move forward again. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for putting yourself out there amidst the critics, whores and bitches, and giving your newly devoted fans such a powerful tool for healing. This grief and pain comes in waves, sometimes after months of gentle seas… it’s so very nice to be thrown a life raft in the midst of it!!! I’m hoping soon I’ll feel ready to write my own story and put it out there. Though I am fairly certain I’ll remain anonymous when i do. You’re a Warrior Goddess for going internet commando with your lady balls.
And you my new sweet friend are why I still do updates, and keep my blog and life up on display.
Because blogs that show life on the other side are rare, and ones which are five going six years out even more so.
Take a deep breath, harness your inner crazy/okay Kelly and go take your life back.
There is no room for might haves and what ifs, just you stomping down the road to recovery, singing loudly and knowing that there is happy out there.
I promise.
Hugs my sweet friend, you got this.