Tag Archives: triggers

Imaginary Friend

A friend messaged me last night… “FUCK!! You left out what Bob said!!” She went on to say he was one of her favorites and she still reads every one of my posts. I think after 20 years of being … Continue reading

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The Long Way Around

Went to see the Dixie Chicks last night… It was a little surreal listening to them live, and screaming/singing ‘Goodbye Earl’ and ‘Not Ready To Make Nice’ with them. Their cover of ‘Landslide’made me tear up. Maybe it should be … Continue reading

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7 Years

Once upon a time there lived a little girl named Lou… She was the heart and the light in her broken family. Innocent. Funny. Happy. But for how much longer? That has been the thought in my late night, can’t … Continue reading

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Lost Boy

Happiness… Is it funny, ironic? That the ONE thing we have all been searching for, when found is maybe the scariest part of healing? We used to take happy for granted, at least I did. Now a bunch of my … Continue reading

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What Hurts The Most

  “Hi…my name is Kelly and I am a betrayed spouse…” “Hi Kelly…” “I’m 809 days into my recovery.” “And?” Asks Bob my inner therapist. “And I’m okay?” “And Okay is good enough?” Questions Angry Kelly from the audience. “Okay is … Continue reading

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Pappa Loved Momma

I’m thinking of giving my husband a ‘triggers’ list for Father’s Day. What do you get the father who had an affair? Who broke your wedding vows and your heart? Who was an unappreciative asshole on his last Father’s Day … Continue reading

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Toes

I’m trying to side step all my vacation triggers this week. Last year I was still a newbie to triggers, and it was a struggle…every single minute of every single day to just get through the day. I’ve gotten better, … Continue reading

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Shaft

Today I will go watch my oldest son graduate again. It is a day full of triggers that I was dreading…moving him out of the dorms I moved him into two years ago. I took a shit ton of pictures … Continue reading

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I am struggling….there I said it, I admitted it. Isn’t that the first step? I realized yesterday this next month is going to be a test of my sanity, of my being a mom first and a betrayed spouse second, … Continue reading

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Bulletproof

I’m watching Steel Magnolias, I know I shouldn’t …   Pisses me off, I can’t watch old favorite shows. You see them with new eyes after an affair….Shelby wants to grow old with Jackson and sit on the back porch … Continue reading

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